xoxoxo...need i say more!!

Hmm.. so, here’s the deal .. its been quite a long tym since I’ve last blogged… I’m being begged n pleaded here by people(many many people!!, mind u..) to feature them in mah haplessly hopeless n nonsensical blogs…. Well, ur wish is my command.. here goes nothing…
A lot has happnd in da week tht was…my year and a half long struggle for CAT finally ended.. CAT came n went ,10 mins into the test I was exhilarated ,140 mins later I was utterly distraught… dreams shattered, felt an emptiness, helplessness , I jus couldn’t believe it.. I actually messed it up..i jus couldn’t take it.…I had absolutely no clue as to wat was happenin arnd me n I jus culdn’t accept de fact tht der is nothing I cud do abt it nemore.. the nxt 72 hrs had me wonderin..well, sumthn lyk dis…
1.) wallowing in self pity
2.) contemplating murder( the idiot who set the paper, u see)
3.) checkin out the next best colleges
4.) blamin it on others(my personal fav:”y god ,y??”)
5.) data insufficient
this is pretty much hw I can sum up my first experience with CAT.
oh, by the way , the answer to the question above, hmm…I think I’ll pass..( galat hogaya tho –1 mark yaar…)
expecting it to be CAThartic, it turned out to be CATaclysmic of unbelievable proportions…
21st November 2007- I’m probably gonna remember dis day 4 the rest of mah lyf…it started off on such an unbelievably bad note n thnkin back on it nw, I cud never even in mah wildest dreams , imagine wat a great deal I’d learn abt the people I love n all the relationships I cherish… it all started off wid a shady conv. in da middle of the nyt which put me in a state of such utter confusion tht I desperately needed to speak to sum1,ne1 who can jus say, its all goin to b ok..considerin tht it was 3 in da morn n the only 1 who was awake was mah best frnd’s boyfrnd who was blind drunk at tht pt of tym..all I tot was “u’ve gotta make the best out of wat u’ve got..rt..”,wrong…if it wasn’t 4 him I wudn’t even be here today telling u all hw gr8 mah lyf is rt nw….. all tht he told me was “ in lyf u get very few chances n u jus cant let go of them thnkin it wudnt wrk out in ur favour neways.. u jus gotta give it a try..n jus give it all u got, so tht u’ll never luk back on it wonder y nt..” no, he’s no Shakespeare n he dint put it as poetically but the message got thru…which resulted in a hmm, well, an act of utter compulsion in broad daylight( to all u perverted minds out there, it was a page n a half long e-mail…on mah defense, I was jus venting my pique.. wat else can a girl do, huh..)
hmm.. all’s well tht ends well rt.. so, yeah , its all gud..alright I admit it.. this is probably gonna haunt me 4 the rest of my lyfL ..oh, wat the hell, all’s fair in luv n war so, I chose mah weapons well..
here I was thnkin dat I’ve dun mah part nd well, life sucks so, its jus not mah lucky day n decided on meetin up a frnd(read: wallow in self pity at her place, I really needed sum1 to hand me the tissues, u c). she bought a whole diffrnt surprise altogether..nd by 3 in de aftrnoon all I cud say was “I jus luv mah lyf”..so, in the span of 12 hrs, mah whole yf literally changed…mah frnd who cudnt even piece two words together gave me the best advice of mah lyf, another frnd of mine, who can never keep a secret did sumthn for which I’m eternally grateful to her nd finally, sum1 I’ve never thot I cud have is mine…
lyf does work in mysterious ways , doesn’t it? so, wat did dat fateful Wednesday teach me, well,it taught me tht in luv nd in lyf u jus have to take a chance ;shit happens but u jus hav to move on nd fairytales do come true…all that I can say rt nw is thank you nd a happy thanksgiving day to all of u…

Shakespeare..revisited!!

There r sumthings in lyf tht ppl get inspired by(read: other ppl).. was havin a long chat wid mah frnd abt dis. (read:eternal, never endin,oh dear god, please make her stop) (ps: wen v hav nothing else to do, r utterely jobless n wen there is nothing gud on tv, yeah, dis is wat v do,v analyse our life). Neither of us was makin ne sense so v decided (considerin da fact tht v successfully bunked college)to do sumthn abt it, to go find our inspiration(hw very filmi!!).Being da lazy bugs tht v r, da 1st thought tht wud come to our minds has to be “ THE INTERNET”. She decided to google it(hw very predictable!!). I on de other hand dint even hav da patience to do tht..I decided to browse thru all mah frnds blogs(apparently every1’s doin some SOUL SEARCHING dese days)I was sure I’m gonna find some crap somewhere which I cud copy,paste n pass it off as mah own..
Its been 2hrs already and no such luck… But I did come across one of close frnd’s blog , ( www.preriii.blogspot.com)
she’s been “QUOTING” a lot dese days..(reason ??)
So I’ve decided to c hw well dey apply to my lyf, maybe, jus maybe , I might come out of dis wid sumthn useful..(fingers crossed here!!)so, here I go…


1: "When I saw you I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.”

Heyy, tht actually happened to me a few days ago..although I thnk da reason he smiled was becoz of the way I fell flat on mah face n made a total fool out of mahself(refer to mah previous post).


2: "They do not love that do not show their love.
The course of true love never did run smooth.
Love is a familiar.
Love is a devil.
There is no evil angel but Love”.

Wen u read somethn in de papers n it makes absolutely no sense to u, u tend to pick out a few keywords tht u do understand n try to comprehend da whole thng, dnt u..?
Well, thts exactly wat I’m gonna do here.. keyword : angel. Hmm..uhh..umm.. nope , NONSENSE… lets jus go only wid angel here, I tried listenin to ROBBIE WILLIAMS’s ”angels” a couple of times, watched an episode of JESSICA ALBA’s “dark angel” (somebody shoot me!!) n finally stuck to RAMMSTEIN ‘s “ Engel”(freakin awesome song… honestly…)


3: "One half of me is yours,
the other half yours-Mine own,
I would say;
but if mine, then yours,
And so all yours!"

Huh!! Wat the…%$#$^%..Ratio n proportions?? I’m at a loss here..

4: ”While half of the world is starving , the other half is on diet!!”

Really?? Is tht true!!its 10.30 in da morning nw n I’ve already emptied mah fridge.. guess, dis one doesn’t apply to me..hmm.. movin on nw..


5: "Taking joy in living is a woman's best cosmetic."

Is it?? I thought Revlon concealer (if u r 20) n L’oreal anti-ageing cream (if u r 40+) was..or if worse comes to worse den BOTOX …oh mah gawd, has mah whole lyf been a sham..wat crap!!(sorry, cudnt come up wid somethn which sounds better n which is more effective… as of nw, lets stick to “ wat crap” shall we? ( no pun intended though))


6: “No man has a good enough memory to make a successful liar.”

Oh yeah…thts true..excerpts 4m a recent conversation for example..

Gym Instructor: Drop n gimme 20..trust me u’ll luk lyk priyanka chopra.
Me: u got it, dude!!
(10 mins later)

GI: Anothr 20 den.. I can definitely c all da makings of bipasha..
(15 mins later)

GI: uhh…umm.. well, lets make it 20 more..shall v.. oh, lets say 4 da rest of da year…hw does dat sound!!
Me:@!#$%#$^%^&..

I rest my case!!!


7: ”Life is 10% how u make it and 90% how u take it!!!!”

I’m still working on tht one….will let u knw hw it turns out…maybe in mah next blog… who knws…


But my all tym favourite has to be this one…its pretty apt , if u ask me…wat do u thnk??

”To know the road ahead, ask those coming back.”

Stupidity...Personified!@!#@$*#$%

Getting over sumthn or sum1 for tht matter is nt as easy as ppl say it is…we’ve all been der haven’t we? Feelin like crap aftr thngs dnt work out in our favour., n we’ve always gt da doting frnds tah give us those precious words of advice-” its over dear..whts dun is dun, jus get over it n move on”., but does it really work tht way??I sincerely doubt it..(4m personal experience ppl !!) myself n a frnd decided tht we need cmpny to go thru dis n da partners in crime tht we usually r , we thot tht the best way tah let go of our past(completely diff storylines here, jus 4 clarification)is to get a complete makeover for ourselves..it all started wid new hairdo’s(well, v r girls n yes, tht is wat v thnk of 1st)aftr 2hrs of washin, colorin, straightenin, practically every other adjective u cud associate wid getting ur hair revamped happnd n then waalaahh!!! Tatadadaaaa…I ended up lukin like MARGE SIMPSON..it might sound cool 4 sum ppl(read: weird ppl) but it wudnt if u had tah get back to coll da nxt day..aftr wastin another 3hrs to gt it bac to da way it originally was wid dismal results, v decided to do sumthn a little less dangerous(read: wudnt make u luk hideous),in dis case hit da gym(heard quite a few ppl talk a lot abt it,abt tonin urself n all but v wer dere 4 one n only 1 reason, EYE CANDY!!)well,v did get dere alright but im a little dazed abt da details of wat happnd aftr , but I do remember a treadmill, a hrithik roshan luk-alike, a twisted ankle and an emergency room. nt really sure if its all in da same order, oh well, here I am 12 hrs later, sittin at hme wid streaks of blue hair n a cast on mah leg..sum makeover ‘eh?? Nxt time ne1 of u gt an urge to do sumthn out of character like dis, plz do remember me(u might thnk u r nt as idiotic as I am, but who knws, der is only 1 way to find out though..but do u really trust ursef tht much to risk it??)n dnt try nethn new or diffrnt..jus stick to the age-old tried n tested formula of THERAPY..well, it’s a slight twist on de original 1, way cheaper n really does work,its called CHOCOLATE THERAPY!!(side effects: addiction to soap operas n unwanted bloating)oh, wat da hell, risk it..live a little…wait a minute…am I contradicting mahself here??wat da hell!! Aahh.. I thnk mah med’s r kickin in nw..oh well,…

CATaclysm!!

In da past 19 yrs I’ve never really wanted anythn this bad..u knw, being da eternal pessimist tht I am, I’ve always knwn tht it was never goin tah work out so I dint even bother tryin to do it..for example, I knew tht I wasn’t gonna get into IIT so even after I went thru rigorous coachin(wakin up at 4 in da morn tah study, it wasn’t exactly cakewalk!!)4 over 2 yrs, I dint even write da test... I wasn’t really interested in engg, so I dint even bother tah write EAMCET(I am an engg. Student nw, but tats a diffrnt story altogether whch involves a truck load of cash n a whole lot of perseverance by my mum!!)u get wat I’m tryin tah say here rt!! I was genuinely never interested in anythn .. my most common answer to” wat r ur career plans?” was always “hmm.. get married to a stinkin rich guy, divorce him n get loads in alimony n spend it all asap n den repeat it all over again”(knew tht wudnt work either but it did make ppl thnk twice b4 they even tried speakin tah me..)But da thng dat’s got me in a fix here is tht as of 2day its been 14months since I’ve sorta decided(then, recklessly, unknowingly….)tht I wanna do MBA (4m a prestigious institute, mind you,gr8 expectations here..)CAT.. November 18th(doomsday!!) is abt 3 mnths away n I’ve jus realized tht I actually do want dis., n its wreakin havoc on mah happy-go-lucky life n lite u take attitude..i almost passed out wen I saw da mock test paper 2day(same as last Sunday n da one b4 tht), not tht it was hard or nethn but jus becoz I’ve been wonderin as to wud I get da %ile tat I need…wud I b able tah crack it … thnk I’m an inch away 4m a total nervous breakdown n da reason I’m penning dis down is jus tah refresh mah memory aftr a couple of days or so as to why dis happnd........... Its frndship day 2day n a gud frnd of mine called me up n all dat I cud tell him was hw royally I messed up mah mock 2day.. was it necessary? Absolutely not.. I’ve gotten to a situation wher I can barely finish a sentence without uttering da words, CAT or percentile or FLT’s or sprints….. the advice tht he gave me or wat I interpreted it to be was tht “ its nt a do or die situation.., jus work at it n give it ur all n more..wen its crunch time , its jus u n ur paper n aftr ur dun wid it, don’t ever luk back n sulk abt it.. enjoy life…enjoy studying 4 it n aftr ur dun wid tht jus frgt abt it n enjoy whatever ur doin..jus give it ur all n ur gud to go…if it doesn’t happen nw den it will da nxt time.. or da nxt…never lose faith..”.n lots more whch I cant seem tah pen down rt nw….. hmm.. well, I never even knew I had faith but yeah, sure,I will give it a shot… I’m nt so sure abt da nxt attempt part of it but da rest of it, I’ll definitely give it mah best try…. Wat’s da worst dat cud happen rt!! This optimistic plague seems tah b catchin on, ‘eh!![:D]….(5th aug'07)

Bukish knwldge...

I recently(read- abt 2 mins ago) finished reading a buk tht one of mah frnds suggested. Apparently it had a ground-breaking,earth-shattering sorta response 4m all of its readers..it changed their lives forever..well,I cant say it did 4 me..i get tht ppl get influenced by buks, dnt get me wrong, I do too, ever heard of COSMOPOLITAN( Its mah bible!!) , I take its quizzes all da time..i’ve met a lot of guys who ardently swear by SPORTS ILLUSTRATED-SWIMSUIT EDITION (I haven’t really heard of another , have u? :-/ ) I can handle almost any buk there is,honestly, but its just these buks abt +ve thinking tht hav put me in a fix here…when I was told abt them, I was literally mesmerized, I actually started thnkin –damn, mah life sucks, instead of sittin here and feelin sorry for mah self I can actually do sumthn abt it,do sumthn for others ,so tht in the end it MIGHT pay off 4 me(keyword : might)being da hardcore pessimist tht I am, even thnkin abt gud thngs happnin to me seemed kinda weird,mayb I was caught in da moment but I let it get da best of me,I actually sat down n read it… hmmm, so much 4 nothin ‘eh? My other option had been watchin tv so,I wouldn’t call reading dis buk an utter waste of time..wat I really dnt understand is v pessimists dnt force u into doin nethn,v don’t make u c da worst(n real) side of thngs, v jus shut up..if its freezing outside n u r wearin a bikini n planning on goin swimming, I wudnt say ur gonna get pneumonia n tht v’d have tah put u in de oven tah defrost u b4 v bury u…I wudnt even thnk of doin tht, I’d let u die ur own painful death,jus da way u like it!!then y do these optimists run their views over us,change ourselves-change da world(#o if only I’d known , v cud’ve stopped SHIVAJI 4m releasing)well, I thnk its jus a load of >:P (u knw wat I mean..)optimism dese days has all da makin of turning into a religion.. really!!..its got its so called facts,its scriptures n most important of all-its followers..wonder which god they’d end up prayin to…I’m thnkin Edward de Bono, v jus gotta wait n see…n to all mah ppl out there, I cant say god help us(v knw tat really wont work out in our favour) so,wen global warmin destroys our atmosphere , wen da sky falls on our heads or wen the earth crumbles to its core, I will c u all in Hell!!