
Hmm.. so, here’s the deal .. its been quite a long tym since I’ve last blogged… I’m being begged n pleaded here by people(many many people!!, mind u..) to feature them in mah haplessly hopeless n nonsensical blogs…. Well, ur wish is my command.. here goes nothing…
A lot has happnd in da week tht was…my year and a half long struggle for CAT finally ended.. CAT came n went ,10 mins into the test I was exhilarated ,140 mins later I was utterly distraught… dreams shattered, felt an emptiness, helplessness , I jus couldn’t believe it.. I actually messed it up..i jus couldn’t take it.…I had absolutely no clue as to wat was happenin arnd me n I jus culdn’t accept de fact tht der is nothing I cud do abt it nemore.. the nxt 72 hrs had me wonderin..well, sumthn lyk dis…
1.) wallowing in self pity
2.) contemplating murder( the idiot who set the paper, u see)
3.) checkin out the next best colleges
4.) blamin it on others(my personal fav:”y god ,y??”)
5.) data insufficient
this is pretty much hw I can sum up my first experience with CAT.
oh, by the way , the answer to the question above, hmm…I think I’ll pass..( galat hogaya tho –1 mark yaar…)
expecting it to be CAThartic, it turned out to be CATaclysmic of unbelievable proportions…
21st November 2007- I’m probably gonna remember dis day 4 the rest of mah lyf…it started off on such an unbelievably bad note n thnkin back on it nw, I cud never even in mah wildest dreams , imagine wat a great deal I’d learn abt the people I love n all the relationships I cherish… it all started off wid a shady conv. in da middle of the nyt which put me in a state of such utter confusion tht I desperately needed to speak to sum1,ne1 who can jus say, its all goin to b ok..considerin tht it was 3 in da morn n the only 1 who was awake was mah best frnd’s boyfrnd who was blind drunk at tht pt of tym..all I tot was “u’ve gotta make the best out of wat u’ve got..rt..”,wrong…if it wasn’t 4 him I wudn’t even be here today telling u all hw gr8 mah lyf is rt nw….. all tht he told me was “ in lyf u get very few chances n u jus cant let go of them thnkin it wudnt wrk out in ur favour neways.. u jus gotta give it a try..n jus give it all u got, so tht u’ll never luk back on it wonder y nt..” no, he’s no Shakespeare n he dint put it as poetically but the message got thru…which resulted in a hmm, well, an act of utter compulsion in broad daylight( to all u perverted minds out there, it was a page n a half long e-mail…on mah defense, I was jus venting my pique.. wat else can a girl do, huh..)
hmm.. all’s well tht ends well rt.. so, yeah , its all gud..alright I admit it.. this is probably gonna haunt me 4 the rest of my lyfL ..oh, wat the hell, all’s fair in luv n war so, I chose mah weapons well..
here I was thnkin dat I’ve dun mah part nd well, life sucks so, its jus not mah lucky day n decided on meetin up a frnd(read: wallow in self pity at her place, I really needed sum1 to hand me the tissues, u c). she bought a whole diffrnt surprise altogether..nd by 3 in de aftrnoon all I cud say was “I jus luv mah lyf”..so, in the span of 12 hrs, mah whole yf literally changed…mah frnd who cudnt even piece two words together gave me the best advice of mah lyf, another frnd of mine, who can never keep a secret did sumthn for which I’m eternally grateful to her nd finally, sum1 I’ve never thot I cud have is mine…
lyf does work in mysterious ways , doesn’t it? so, wat did dat fateful Wednesday teach me, well,it taught me tht in luv nd in lyf u jus have to take a chance ;shit happens but u jus hav to move on nd fairytales do come true…all that I can say rt nw is thank you nd a happy thanksgiving day to all of u…